I See What You Did There…

Dear Universe,

I miss writing. I’ve been out of the game for a while and I can feel the pull again. Maybe I’m slowly starting to come out on the other side of all of the shit you’ve thrown me lately.

Yeah, I’m calling you out.

Because life has been (and let’s be real, still is) a complete and utter shitshow for me lately.

I know you did this for a reason – the whole husband cheating on me and leaving me thing, I mean. I know I’m meant to grow and learn and my soul is on a journey yada yada.

And I know that this was all in the cards for me somehow.

Like, oddly so.

Especially when I read this little gem from my Life’s Work gene key:

“Anything you embark on already has a built-in life cycle of seven years. This means that life has a habit of moving on with you. Every seven years, your relationships, jobs, home, etc. must to be reinvented in some way.”

And then you literally served me up finalized divorce papers on my 35th birthday.

I see what you did there. I mean really, could you be any more obvious?

I just want to say – in this poorly written declaration – I get it.

I don’t like it. In fact, I fucking hate the way this had to happen. The pain. The questioning of my worth. The loneliness. The watching the future I had envisioned for myself and my family circling down the drain.

But I get it.

This is my next chapter starting. Life is ready for me to shift gears. There’s something bigger going on here.

And I trust that you’ve got my back while I grow through this.

Sorry if you think I’m a bitch for writing this to you. For my blunt delivery and less-than-thrilled attitude.

But I think that’s going to be my thing for a while – sharing with you what I’ve got going on down here in this little soul of mine, for better or for worse. Sharing about how I’m picking up what you’re putting down.

So, thanks, Universe. I guess. Thanks for the shitstorm. I know it’s going to take me on life-changing journey I never saw coming.

Here’s to the new journey and to writing about all of its ups and downs along the way. Cheers, Universe.

-Bailee