Yes, I Saw It

Dear Universe,

He shared a picture of the two of them together on social today.

Yes, I saw it. Yes, I’m writing about it. Did you honestly expect anything less?

She looked pretty. They looked happy.

And I felt like throwing up.

Every time I think I’m over it – healed, moved on, enjoying my life – there comes some fresh new punch in the gut I didn’t expect.

I didn’t think I would care. I mean, time has passed. I know they’re together. But something about seeing it, right there, so blatantly in my face… yeah. Cue the nausea.

And I’m a fucking sadist, Universe. I knew the second I saw an unopened story from my ex husband who never ever posts stories exactly what I was going to see.

Then I pushed that godforsaken open button anyway.

I don’t even know why I care. Because in my brain, I don’t. But apparently my body hasn’t gotten the message. That stomach sinking feeling is going to keep coming again and again and again no matter how strong I think I am or how much I think I’ve moved on.

When does it stop having power over me, Universe? When does it just go away? For like, good?

Anyway…. thanks for sending a thunderstorm right after. That helps I guess. I love thunderstorms.

Now if only I could get better at weathering the storm…

XO – Bailee

June 27, 2026