I Trust You

Dear Universe,

I trust you. I trust that everything I’m going through is just a stepping stone to help my soul expand. I trust that you know exactly what you’re doing.

And I don’t mean that in a “Jesus take the wheel” type way. I’m not going to just sit back and eat Bonbons and wait it out while you make my life better someday. I’m going to live now.

Because I trust that you’re helping me through each day exactly as I need to be helped – with tools and strength and inspiration. My job isn’t to sit here idly. It’s to be aware and open and work with the gifts you’ve blessed me with.

I trust that the words you send to my mind that can’t NOT come out are the ones I’m meant to share with the world. This isn’t just barfing my brain diary out onto the internet. These are words that you’ve given me the gift of putting into coherence – the stories you want me to tell. And sharing them is putting me into conversation with good, genuine people. These words are healing and helping others, too.

I trust that this whole divorce ordeal isn’t just suffering for suffering’s sake. It isn’t random. This is a challenge that helps me grow into the person I truly am and was always meant to be. It’s life pushing me out of stagnation.

I trust that you won’t throw me any curveballs I can’t handle. I know you know what I’m capable of more than I always do in the moment. I’m learning that each emotion is a wave that will pass (I can’t promise that I won’t write my way through them when they hit, though – hope that’s OK with you). You are helping me to flex my muscles – to grow my strength without snapping.

I trust that that my life has meaning. It has purpose. And that I’m not always meant to understand what that is in any given moment. I can only see how all the dots connected when I look back.

So I know that what I’m supposed to do right now is to just be here, present, and let life play out. To pay attention to the signs. Feel the energy. Listen for the inspiration. Keep trusting that you’re laying out the path for me piece by piece. And try to enjoy the ride.

I know that each day’s new words are forming life’s next chapter. An epic novel is being written.

Thank you, Universe. I keep my faith in you.

XO – Bailee