Today’s The Day

Dear Universe,

Today’s the day we move into the next chapter of our life – our new home.

It’s bittersweet.

I’m ready to be moving on (literally and figuratively) and starting fresh. To live my life the way I want to in my own space. To leave all of this other crap behind.

But it feels a bit like closing a door I never wanted to close. Like officially putting the nail in the coffin on the life I could have had – the one I would have chosen if given the chance.

I’m trying not to dwell or look back or play the “what if” game today. I’m trying to look forward and pay attention to all the good that is to come. Because I know it will.

Our new home is going to be filled with love and family. Creativity. Curiosity. Laughter. Depth. Joy. A home run by women who are going to rule the world someday.

Maybe there’ll be room someday for another man in our lives and our home – a man who chooses us and wants us and fights for us every day. But that man will meet us where we are in this new life we’re building for ourselves. I won’t settle for less anymore.

I’m so grateful for the friends and family (and, yes, even my ex) for helping us on this day – for shepherding us on to the next part of our journey. It’s not a light task – primarily because I packed the boxes to the brim but also because today might involve lifting spirits as much as furniture.

I know today is going to bring emotional ups and downs, Universe. I ask you to please help me stay strong and to keep looking forward. Help me to make this new house (apartment…) our home.

Help us to feel whole again in this new place.

They say that home is where the heart is. I hope that this home where my broken heart can begin to heal.

XO – Bailee