Reality Blows

Dear Universe,

I’ve realized today that perhaps the reason I haven’t been writing to you much is because I’ve been spending a lot of time living in my imagination and not so much in reality.

And maybe I’m doing that because my reality fucking sucks right now.

I’m in this messy middle where a lot of the shit of the past is metabolized and I’m moving into a new future, but I can’t really see the path yet. Nothing is clear and the things I want to hold on to go away and it’s all just a bit of a shitshow.

I’m trying to go with the flow – take it day by day and surrender and all that shit I’ve written about to you before. I know that what is meant to be will be. But the not-moving-forward-toward-something-tangible is making me super restless.

And I know what most people would say: Get a job. Find a hobby. Get out more. Date.

Blech.

I guess I’m not really willing to sacrifice my alignment and the direction I want for my life because I’m bored or lost or whatever I am right now. I’d rather just bitch about it a lot instead.

I trust that the path is going to show itself if I stay patient. And if I use my imagination. If I spend some time away from the reality and inside what could be. What I want to be.

Maybe a part of me thinks the daydreaming and the wandering brain are allowing me insight into what I really want – the things I can’t see when I’m only in reality mode. I’m seeing more of where I want to go.

And yeah, this “what if” land is probably a really fucking dangerous place to live, but maybe I’d rather hang out here than in the stagnant duldrums of this lame ass reality right now.

I’m trying to pull my head out of the clouds a bit. I’m trying to ground the imagination and the hopes and the dreams. I guess I haven’t figured out exactly how to do that yet. I’m missing the instruction manual.

So here comes the ask, Universe: can you help me start bringing more of the imagination into reality? Is that “manifesting?” I don’t even know. But yeah – that please. Show me the route from cloud to ground.

And in the meantime me and my wandering brain are going to go wander through the forest and let the imagination run wild a while.

Cheers!

XO – Bailee

August 3, 2026